Just Another Girl.
I’m just another girl in this big world. I’m not perfect; actually I’m far from it. I love my life, and believe it or not all the mistakes I’ve made. I’m not proud of my mistakes but they make me who I am. There’s no one exactly like me, and I wouldn’t wana be anybody else. For all you reading this, embrace your flaws because they are what make you beautifully unique. You are so beautiful! If you’re having trouble with yourself and being comfortable with who you are you’re not alone, I can promise you that. But sweetie open your eyes and realize that you’re perfect in God’s eyes, and he loves you so much. No one promised life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it. So never give up, life is worth the fight. Hold your head high, and remember you are beautiful!
Saturday, May 28, 2011
I would like to share some of my life with all you bloggers, and I want you to try and take what ever you can out of my story for what its worth to you. Back in October of 2010 I was competing with my school volleyball team at an away game. While on the court, my hands started shaking uncontrollably and I couldn't breathe, moments later I blacked out. I woke up with my coach and athletic trainers all around me, they figured I was just dehydrated and exhausted so they gave me tons of fluids and sent me home. I thought that would be the first and last time I experienced something like that, but I was as wrong as wrong can be. Two days later, I was again competing with my team at an away game. We won our game and were on our way home, or so we thought. I got on the bus and sat down with my friend and suddenly my legs went completely numb, my hands started shaking, I couldn't breathe, and I once again blacked out. The bus went directly to the nearest hospital. EMT's had to carry me off the bus, and away I went on a stretcher. At that hospital they did ton's of tests, they said it was going to take a few days for the test results to come back, and when I was feeling a little better and everything was under control they let me go home. The next day the athletic trainer from my school called me into his office, and told me that the results from the tests they did at the hospital had come back. I had Lyme disease. They put me on tons of meds and after two months nothing had changed. I was constantly having those episodes at school, at home, and during sports. They were getting worse and everyone could tell. I was exhausted all the time, I started getting horrible headaches and the episode intensity increased. One day at school I was at my locker and I had an episode, except this time I couldn't communicate with anyone, I couldn’t open my eyes, everything was spinning around me, and my body when limp after I woke up from the blackout. My headmaster called 911 and an ambulance was on the way. My stay in the hospital was two days and they kept running tests but everything came back normal. Ever since that episode, I had mornings where I would wake up and I literally couldn’t move no matter how hard I tried, so I would have to say in bed all day. My local doctor’s weren’t coming up with any answers and my life was going down hill. I couldn’t play sports anymore, and I was only going to school twice a week. Things were getting really bad, and the headmaster at my school put me on a medical leave of absence. My mom made a phone call, and one month later I would have a doctor’s appointment with the neurology team at
Tufts Medical Center (The Floating Hospital for Children) in . The day finally came and my mom and I drove to Boston Massachusetts . We sat down with the team of doctors and they listened to me explain what had been happening. When I finished speaking the first thing that they said to me was, “we are going to figure all this out and give you your life back, that’s a promise because were not going to stop until we do.” Those were probably the most reassuring words any doctor had ever said to me. By the description of the episodes they were wondering if I was having seizures, if there was a malformation of my brain, or if the Lyme disease caused neurological trauma. They admitted me to the hospital for two weeks with a twenty four hour EEG going constantly. It was a long stay but it was worth it, the day I got discharged was the day they told me the EEG showed that what was going on were not seizures. It was such a relief to me, but still the question remained, what’s wrong? My team of doctors ordered an MRI of my brain to see if there was any type of brain malformation. Again to my relief the results came back and they were normal. We were at the last possibility, and they discovered that the Lyme disease had caused neurological trauma. They started me on medicine that I will have to take for the rest of my life, and they called a Lyme disease specialist in Boston that they wanted me to go see a week later. So the following week my mom and I got back in the car and drove to New York to meet with the doctors. When we got there they doctors ran tests and the results showed that the Lyme disease had never gone away. It was serious. Right then and there he sent me to the nearest hospital so that they could put a PICC line (temporary IV) in my arm. I started treatments for the Lyme disease, and I got really sick from the medicine. With the treatments and the meds the doctors at Tufts gave me my episodes finally started decreasing and I was getting my life back. After four months of treatment I am beyond happy to say that my PICC line was taken out and the treatments were stopped. Also I haven’t had an episode in almost four weeks and at my last doctors appointment they told me there was an 80% chance I would never have an episode again. I’m still not back to being myself again but someday soon I hope to be. Even on my weakest day’s I get a little bit stronger. I’m not asking for pity, I just want everyone to know that life is a gift from God and it’s not always easy but he’s with you every step of they way. Everything happens for a reason, and God won't put an obstacle in your life if he doesn't think you're strong enough to overcome it. I don’t know what my story is worth to all of you, but I hope you can take something from it and make your life the best it can be. You only have one life, so live it to the fullest; and live each day like it’s your very last. New York
Friday, May 27, 2011
Hey all you bloggers! I'm new to this whole blogging thing, but I thought it would be really fun to have a blog all about me:) I've got a crazy life but I'm going to try and leave a new post everyday. I'm really excited for this weeked! I've been playing basketball since I could walk, and I've been playing AAU basketball for about four years. I'm currently playing for a team out of Hartford Connecticut called the CT Panthers. Undefeated for two years baby! Haha anyways, we compeat in tournaments everyother weekend and this weekend were compeating in Stamford CT. It's a long drive for us, but I love the long car rides with my mom and then getting to play even if the first game is at eight in the morning! It's 80 degrees here today, after a harsh winter I'm lovin' this weather! Running, going to see my sister, then basketball practice tonight! I'm loving my life:)